Wow, almost forgot that I had a blog. Can't believe that two weeks just flew by like that and now I'm back in my freezing office again. It was like living a totally different world when I was back home and coming back to London so soon without time to prepare myself mentally has got me confused about which life I lead is real. Actually, both are, and I am equally comfortable in both contries but it is as though my soul is living simultaneously on two different planes, yearning for them to merge so that I can have all my loved ones by my side as I continue my academic pursuits. Well, I suppose dreams should always be left as they are if the chances of them coming true are slim.
I realised that I was still living in two places and two time zones when I tried really really hard to recall which is the correct MRT station to head for after school to get me back to my hall in London today.*lol* I still wake up automatically at 4am in the morning and by 4 o'clock in the afternoon my brain starts falling asleep. I really missed the food, the smells, the sound of trains passing my place every few minutes and I even miss the chinggay procession that was supposed to pass through my estate yesterday which I've not seen in years. And I miss the warmth from the sun now as my numb fingers type away on my keyboard. Now, that's homesickness, isn't it? Well, having dealt with it for the past 7 years, I know that it'll never go away but I think I'm handling it much better with each passing year and very soon, I may not have to experience it again. =) yeah!
Despite having to suffer an intense period of homesickness, the two weeks back home have been great and I enjoyed every moment of it. =) During my first week back I realised that I do look somewhat out of place and a quick survey told me that my crowning glory was too traditional. Hence, I went for my first ever salon highlight (yes, I've been really out of touch) and I thought I would surprise my folks back home but they all thought that I had too little colour on my hair (wow, even my parents are more progressive then me!!*chuckle*). Well, at least my brother thought that I looked more Singaporean with some (but not enough) colour on my hair and I agree. I kind of like my new look if not for the frizz that comes from too much blow drying.
The new year period was fabulous. For the first time in many years, instead of imagining the fireworks display over the phone as I call to wish my family and relatives Happy New Year, I caught the real display with them along the Singapore river. I tasted home-cooked dishes that I've forgotten and just sitting among family and relatives made me really happy. I suddenly realised that celebrating chinese new year with a group of friends overseas may be very fun but it is still lonely without family around and I don't think I'll ever want to spend another CNY away from home if I possibly can.
And oh, I did fulfill my promise of making green tea ice-cream for MX by the way and I'm glad I did spend as much time as I possibly can with him. After all, he was so sweet as to take 2 weeks leave to keep me company and it was with his help that I was able complete my shopping in time before I flew back.
2 weeks is definitely not enough but its better than nothing. And now I can continue celebrating CNY with my London friends and also attend Hwa Chong nite this coming saturday. Will be interesting to see how things have changed since we had the uk alumni set up 7 years ago. And of course, it's not going to be all play and no work. Once my cough/sorethroat/flu is cured I'll be packing my daily schedule to the brim again.
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